KILLER

i faced apprehension in the eye today.

i took the plunge, there were times i felt better.

but i won.

i just needed to get it on record.

HEART LIKE COPPER

today was suppose to be a good day. but shit happens.

now i couldnt care less. really. i did nothing the whole day.

then came evening when my folks brought the brother and i to visit our grandpa. we went to this super cool icecrm place after. its things like horlicks-flavoured ice cream that really does the trick.

b is gonna love it.

haha

what a freaking bitter day.

GOODMORNING 6AM.

my right thumb and index is so blistered because i tried to fix the DIY boxes i got from ikea like eons ago. why do they make us screw the things with our fingers?

thats so horrid. i was so not prepared for the consequence.

haha.

anyway, i just read janice's blog. wanted to take the first peek long ago, but it always slipped my mind. i'm glad it struck me just though.

she is disgusting. SERIOUSLY! like pwhoar, profanities were conjuring in my brain while i read her entries, some not even invented yet. tsk.

for example, i'm okay with people posting all sorts of pictures of themselves in their blog's. i mean, its their story you see. but her's went overboard with all that model-wannabe thing. (captions too)

her's screamed "my cousins are all pigs!". of course, metaphorically.

hahahah.

i wanna take her camera and smack her face.

but she kept me reading on though. so thats some good blogging shit. i had to coax myself to stop clicking "previous".

good job janice. (:

FAR AWAY

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

i love Nickelback.

ZIT.s

mayday, mayday. i have a huge pimple on my nose. again.

is there a problem with the way i breathe or something? why nose? sheesh.

anyway, the dad is now in the skies now travelling across the oceans to Norway. interesting country to set foot on, eh. i know he is kinda reluctant on that. i would gladly go on his behalf though but i have (sickening) school.

haha. whats new.

nowadays i'm super super restless when i'm not on the move. its like, i can't even watch tv marathons anymore! ugh.

maybe its a sign.

eh people, lets go play paintball leh? please...

UNO PROBLEMA

i can't seem to bring myself to attend ibm and socio classes. nowadays its better, because at least i wake up for it. last time i use to just pretend it doesnt concern me. but still, it aint enough.

i'm still not attending them.

like even after i bathe and am ready to leave the house, i get the devil in me telling me "why for".

and then i succumb to that. and watch lousy tv in the morning.

i need rehab for this.

fast.

THE ONE WHERE POOL DID IT

it was a good run. liverpool did what i know they had in them all along. they are really the epitome of "never say die".

and okay lah. to be fair, the gunners are really on the road to being "the goners" this 2008.

fabregas!! what happened?!

anyway, kudos to THEO WALCOTT. (: (: (:

seriously.

the run he made which famed adebayor for arsn's 2nd was awesome!

prodigy lah he.

A BIENTOS'

less than one more month to may.

DIE.

must..start..mugging. soon. (yes i know i'm terrible)

my finger still hurts. you only realised the importance of a finger till you lose its function. the vast difference it makes is sometimes unthinkable. even normal day to day actions can make you reel in pain.

i'm sorry finger. i promise not to slam the door on you ever again.

haha.

i'm bored. am going to start being back home early now. for now, i meant.

have fun in taiwan, you. thanks for temporarily taking away another distraction from studying. (:

goodnight. i'm really going INto church tmr.

SOMETIMES, LIFE GETS YOU BACK.

i have learned, never to overestimate your ability to handle something big and dangerous. even if there was encouragement and no obvious disagreement.

even though you have tried the similar stunt before!

anyway its my fault lah. i shouldnt have asked for permission or even harbour such thoughts over his beloved bluemachine. he was just being nice, i reckon. so, i let the adrenaline rush overwhelmed me.

its only the mere biting point! haha. i let it run for about a second, and then i realised i havent got the strength to balance it properly when it stops. i should have known better. even bringing it straight up without its stand is already eating up almost all of my energy.

but people always succumb to stupidity. likewise for me.

when i wobbled, he even tried to help me counter the weight. but because the stupid road was still slippery due to the rain, he slipped and fell! ohman, my heart dropped. its like, in order to save me and break the fall, he had to injure himself.

i felt like shit.

because of him, i had ample time to remove my left leg from under the weight of the bike. haha. i only got wounds on my left elbow. he had no fault to play but ended up with wounds on his knee! and of cos, slight damages to his ride.

guilt is eating me up. (i'm really sorry, lms!)

and the first thing he told me after it all was "bu yao zi ze". ARGH. and all i had to do was to not fall/drop like what he told me before.

dammit lah kat.

after it all, i even accidentally slammed the car door on my finger cos my elbow couldnt react properly. i think i deserved it. haha.

this is why, i'm spotting a blue, swollen and really abnormal index now. cool eh.

APRIL'S FOOL

hello everyone. i just played my first prank.

hahahahahhahahaha.

its a very good one indeed. poor boy got so shaken up, he almost wanted to 'bamboo' someone. hehh.

and i'm boreddddddddddddddddd. already.

but since there's school tmr at 930 and the sickenining month of may is coming, i shall go to bed now.

goodnight.